As women we are being called to wake up, rise up, and break free from the ways we have hidden who we really are. It’s my absolute passion to guide you towards rediscovering a relationship with your essential self, deeply appreciating your body, and playfully learning to listen to your intuition. I do all of this through a range of modalities: yoga, self care, mentoring, and other tried-and- true practices, all of which bring you into connection with your sacred self.
I’m not into quick fixes or scripted exercise and yoga routines, which in my opinion, are outdated models that limit you from the unique language of your body.
The story begins back in 1988. I was 5 years old and was so thrilled to be attending ballet class. I distinctly remember being in the dressing room putting on my cute pink leotard at the studio when a fellow student commented on how big my thighs were. In that moment, while I couldn’t put words like shame and embarrassment to it at the time, I felt myself start to shut down and want to hide.
I started my struggle with anorexia at the tender age of 12. At that time my parents created a plan of action that included leaving school for 6 months of outpatient treatment. Even though I wasn’t actively suffering from anorexia, the remainder of junior high and high school was hard as I often felt out of place, too sensitive, awkward, and like I never quite fit in.
Fast forward to 2001, I was a freshman at UCSB. It was my first time away from home, and all too quickly old and yet familiar feelings of not being good enough and striving to fit in came rushing back. What started as my desire to stay healthy, soon became a daily dose of over-exercising, restricting my calories, and feeling as at war with myself as I did when I was 12.
It had been a month since being asked to leave UCSB in order to get well. I was in denial, I was angry at my family and I was refusing treatment. I went to the gym one early morning in April, and as I drove home I was overcome with dizziness and I ultimately ended up in the ER. Waking up there, an internal alarm sounded, and I really understood that if I continued to make the choices I was making I was headed down a path of losing my life.
I knew it was time to make a shift; I could not keep living this way!
Then in May of 2002 I took one of the biggest steps in my life as I checked into UCLA eating disorder treatment center for 4 months. From there, my relationship with my body and myself began to shift. The critical way in which I spoke about and to my body, what I believed, and how I treated myself all began to soften.
Later that year I returned to UCSB and spent the next 4 years finishing my degree in Sociology and Exercise Health and Science and soon after graduation I launched my personal training business. At the time it was a great next step for me to experience actually being in my body.
Even though I had made so many shifts, I realized how much I had still been hiding who I really was. It became clear to me that the way I was living my life was out of alignment and I had no idea who I really was and what I wanted.
Many times I had to ask myself, “Can I be comfortable in this radical and complete unknown?”
Keep in mind, that at this time I was still very traditionally Type A and yoga was FAR from my list of activities of interest. But something kept drawing me back to those classes that I couldn’t articulate. I experienced a deep appreciation, softening, and respect for my body in a way that had previously been silenced.
It is mind blowing what time can do! Honestly as I am sharing all this with you now, I feel like I am telling you the story of another girl.
In 2011, I made the difficult but purely heart-led decision to close down my personal training business and launch Yoga’licious, which at the time was a weekly blog with a yoga pose and a recipe. I had zero financial security but I knew that was where I was meant to be.
Yoga’licious has evolved through the years into the myriad of offerings it is today. I feel in all my being and heart that I am living my soul’s purpose. I am humbled and sometimes want to pinch myself when I think about the amazing women I get to play with each day and to see my vision come to life in service of others.
If you’ve made it this far, you might want to know some fun facts about me, too:
If there’s any way I can sum up what I’ve learned from my journey to share it with you, it would be this:
Inside of each of us there is a whole world of possibilities that is just waiting to emerge. Support can empower you in ways that you have likely never experienced. You already have the answers. My role is to help you unveil them and awaken you to the magic within! Let’s play!